Thursday and Thrilled
Well, not exactly thrilled. (kinda grumpy) Still cannot taste dip shit. I know it will come back but this time it seems to be taking a tad longer. Yes, used the word tad.. deal!
A really warm and lovely day out there. Summer is almost officially done and we are having to deal with humidity. The harvest moon last night was very full, as a full moon usually is, although I would have liked to see it on the horizon. Perhaps from my next house, perched on a hill with a 360☼ view of sunrise and sunset that also offers moon rise and moon set. I can dream.
Had my usual smoothie and 2 cups o'coffee. Pondering food is a small obsession. I want it to have some taste but fear it will never be the same. At least if I don't enjoy eating, I may not eat as much and lose more weight, attributing it to the Chemo diet.
Have not heard any more blasting in the vicinity. Perhaps they have moved their operation out of range. I wish I could totally gut the house and completely redo the insides. I would put the kitchen in close proximity to the front door. Redo the windows and also relocate all the bedrooms upstairs. Of course, I am dreaming. If I did win a lottery, the obvious thing to do, would build a new house to our specs. Even hire an architect.
It would also be VERY ZEN.
That makes me giggle. Ya, ZEN! I ponder getting rid of just about everything so I can be free of desire and stuff. Whittling down to basics so life is quality. Can ya dig it? After all, what basic items does one actually need on a day to day basis? Call it downsizing.
There must be scads of blogs out there telling folks how to accomplish this feat. More of a distraction that would paralyze me on a continuing basis. Strange how the desire to do this is a desire and we must be free of desire to feel free. A paradoxical notion. Plus my husband laughs at me when, in a fit of "stuff" rage, I say, "lets get rid of everything". Too many kitchen gadgets, utensils, dishes, cookware, pots, pans, appliances!! Too many living/dining room decorations, nic-naks, chairs, tables, cushions. Too many bedroom things, clothes, blankets, throws, sheets, duvets, pillows. Just too damn many possessions that drag me down. Perhaps surviving chemo and getting on with my life while battling the 5 yr plan of breast cancer will propel me to get with this program.
Once the cats go over that rainbow bridge, no more pets, although having a cat really gives me a lot of pleasure. But cannot have an animal if we plan to travel, which is also on my ta-do list of shit before I contribute my dust to the cosmos.
On that happy note, I will close. Remember to KEEP DANCING!
